SMILE!

So today I went to the dentist for the first time since they took my wisdom (teeth of course). I was so proud, if I was still a kid at Dr Ross' office I would have been in the 'NO CAVITY' club and got a super cool picture on the wall! The hygenist kept telling me how clean and plaque free my teeth were even though it had been 3 years since my last appointment. Then to top off the great oral exam, the dentist walked in to check my mouth, and the first thing he said was " Oh you were right, she has great teeth!" Call me silly, but it felt great to hear a pro telling me how great of a smile I have. I may be in stretchy pants cause I'm getting a huge gut, but my smile is still attractive! One place I don't have to worry about the baby messing up! HA! Teeth can't get stretch marks!

Needed Pep-Talk

For some reason last night I could not fall asleep. Ok, the reason was I was stressing out about all of the things I haven't been doing well lately. One of my pregnancy symptoms is getting down on myself. Yesterday, I woke up feeling really good, and started to be productive. While folding laundry I had to run to the bathroom and get sick (WHEN WILL I BE DONE WITH THAT!?). After getting sick, I couldn't calm my body back down, so I had to just give up and go to sleep. I woke up from my sleeping and was shaking and still all weird. This just made me really mad. I was angry that AGAIN I wasn't getting the housework done, and I could barely think of how to take care of myself. This pleasant mood carried with me for the rest of the evening (sorry Jon!). I then took those thoughts further and started to stress about why I was becoming a mom. If I can't take care of myself and keep a clean house, what was I thinking becoming a mom! So that was some of what was going through my head while I was trying to sleep, and then while sitting at the computer.

After checking my email, and not being suprised to find nothing there, I felt inspired to visit the church website and read a talk. So lds.org loaded, and there it was, the First Presidency message from President Uchtdorf " The Influence of Righteous Women". This message was just perfect for me last night! For those of you who haven't read it, look it up! It is short and sweet, but left me feel uplifted and ready to take on the world. One paragraph in particular hit me hard last night:

"May I invite you to rise to the great potential within you. But don’t reach beyond your capacity. Don’t set goals beyond your capacity to achieve. Don’t feel guilty or dwell on thoughts of failure. Don’t compare yourself with others. Do the best you can, and the Lord will provide the rest. Have faith and confidence in Him, and you will see miracles happen in your life and the lives of your loved ones. The virtue of your own life will be a light to those who sit in darkness, because you are a living witness of the fulness of the gospel (see D&C 45:28). Wherever you have been planted on this beautiful but often troubled earth of ours, you can be the one to “succor the weak, lift up the hands which hang down, and strengthen the feeble knees” (D&C 81:5)."

Last night (and let's be honest, lots of days and nights lately) I have been dwelling on the things I am not doing perfect. I have been beating myself up over things that really don't matter (so what if the dishes are still in the sink! I'm growing a baby!) I need to do a better job at being faithful and positive in my life, because I know from past experiences that when I am relying on the Lord and focusing on His plan for my life, everything else starts to fall into place. I am so grateful for this message! It has helped me to get my butt in gear (as my mother would say). I know that I will never be a perfect wife or mother, but if I stay close to the Lord and have faith in Him, everything will work out.

Baby Belly

So just a month ago I started to feel the baby kicking and moving around, but the past few weeks the kicks have gotten MUCH stronger. This morning a kick actually woke me up! I was laying there after being kicked awake, and realized that when baby kicks, she makes my stomach jump now! It looks kinda creepy, but cool all at the same time! To mom's out there you prolly think I sound funny, but this is the first time I've had my stomach jumping from the inside.... it was kinda a sci-fi moment for me. Having her getting stronger only makes me want to get her out here sooner... I guess I can wait 100 or so more days.... oh that sounds so long!